Monthly Archives: June 2015
I’m stuck in my own head tonight. Second guessing things I once thought I knew. Seeing things differently now.
Are all those things he ever said even true? Held me close, then pushed me away. Broken promises, broken plans, broken dreams. He’s a stranger to me now. Memories. Diamonds losing their shine, silver tarnishing. Each and every one of them tucked away. Hidden from view. Out of sight, out of mind.
Broken pieces, stitched back together.
Things are finally starting to calm back down. On Mother’s Day, Finn and I were told to pack our stuff and get out, because we refused to give our roommates the last $10 to our name.
It’s been one helluva roller coaster ride, but I tell ya what, I learned that Finn is definitely a keeper. He could have moved back into his parent’s house, but since they wouldn’t allow us to live together unmarried (religious reasons), he refused. Instead, we slept in his car and couch surfed. That is, until his family found out, and his grandmother offered to let us stay in her house.
That man is the most amazing man I’ve ever met. He’s shown me nothing but compassion and concern since the night we met. When it felt like my life was falling apart, he was there helping me rebuild from the ashes. He’s gone above and beyond anything I would have ever asked for. Words cannot properly convey how much he means to me.
Everything happens for a reason. He came into my life when I wasn’t very lovable, but fell in love with me anyway. He’s made me smile, when I really wanted to cry. I feel so very blessed to have him in my life, even more so to be able to call him mine.