So Not Ready…


Finn and I are Trying To Conceive (TTC). I’ve been off birth control since May. I’m on unmedicated cycle 6. No big deal, since we weren’t actively “trying” until my August cycle. So, we’re on cycle 3 of actively trying. 

I’m not holding out too much hope, however. Because we have a few things stacked against us…

My XH and I tried for over three years, and in that time, I had two very, very early miscarriages. Not sure if it was XH or me, but it’s on my mind. Finn had a bilateral hernia in his groin a few years before we met, and they used mesh to patch it. There’s a minute chance that can cause sterility in men. Also… My age. I turn 35 in 47 days. Advanced Maternal Age. That doesn’t mean it’s impossible for me to get pregnant, only harder. And if Finn does manage to knock me up, I’ll be considered high risk. 


I’m attempting (and struggling) to take it day-by-day, cycle-by-cycle, but it’s hard when Finn’s mother decided to make it a competition between us and BIL&SIL over who can get pregnant first. She actually said those words… “Now it’s a competition to see who gets pregnant first” right in front of SIL and me. 

This is my life now. MIL trying to turn everything into a competition between us and BIL&SIL. And I’m not having it. We don’t want to conceive a child because that’s what MIL wants. We want to conceive a child because that’s what WE want. 

While we ARE trying, we’re of the opinion of “If it happens, it happens” because we KNOW what’s stacked against us. 


Posted on October 27, 2017, in babies, Blogging, family, Finn, life, Relationships, trying to conceive, ttc and tagged , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. I’m sorry your MIL has turned TTC into a competition. I can’t imagine what that is like. Hopefully, that idea withers away. Sending good vibes! – Em

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    • What makes it worse is that MIL is aware of my previous fertility issues. Felt like salt in a wound when she said that.

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      • I was hoping she was unaware. I’m sorry about that. That is really insensitive. It’s as if she believes a competition will solve fertility issues and it doesn’t work like that. Do your BIL and SIL know about the fertility issues? If so, maybe they’ll speak about it with your MIL?

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      • I’m not sure if they’re aware or not. It’s not something I advertise, but I told Finn’s parents when they first started talking about grandchildren. They’re of the opinion that prayer will help, and if it doesn’t, there’s always adoption.

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      • Gotcha, that’s fair. I understand fertility issues aren’t the most fun to talk about. Hopefully, MIL will turn it around. Based on the adoption option, it seems she understands that prayer can only go so far. Sending good vibes your way!

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      • Here’s hoping. All we can do is try.

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